Tom MacDonald - Anxiety Lyrics






I wake up feelin' panicked, my pills are in the cabinet
Takes all the strength I have to just ignore them as I pass it
Man, I hope this feelin' passes soon, been to hell and back and it's barely noon
I'm scared to go outside, shit, I'm surprised I even left my room
And it feels like no one understand how bad I'd love to join my friends
It's hard to breathe, I'm anxious and I'll end up stayin' home instead
The doctor hasn't helped me much, he signs his name I buy the drugs
I'm feelin' weird, I take one out, it makes me feel comfortably numb
Man, I can't handle my emotions like I used to, it's all different now
I start to sweat, I feel confused, my fingers shake, my heartbeat pounds
And I'm feelin' claustrophobic everytime the closet closes
'Cause my skeletons are in there, so I have to leave it open
I'm just nervous over nothin', even shit I can't control
I used to love to be in public, now I'd rather be alone
And even though it's difficult it's probably for the best
If I didn't make a change I woulda drank myself to death
Then I'll wake up feelin' better than I did the day before
But then it hits me outta nowhere and almost knocks me to the floor
A heaviness, a readiness to get back into bed
A sadness that I can't explain, a cloud over my head
My deepest, darkest fears feel like they're fillin' up and ocean
And I'm floatin' on the surface with no hope to keep me goin'
I've been down on myself, man, I forgot how to believe in me
I never asked for help, now I just struggle with it secretly
I wish that it was somethin' I could sweep under the carpet
Tryna hide it all the time only makes the battle harder
Man, I lived a lot of moments that I probably shoulda cherished
Now they seem so far away from me, I'm angry and embarrassed
I can't even tell my parents, they don't need to keep on worryin'
My mama and my papa don't deserve to have to bury me
I hope the pills I have will hold me over for a while
I'll keep searchin' for the strength to find my smile





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  1. C.... J....

    You should do more of these. These spoken words from you hit me every damn time. I love you dude.

  2. m.... ....

    I haven't suffered myself but have helped my partner through it. And tried to help and advise dozens of others. I will be sending links out to this like straight away. U r the unspoken voice of millions bro

  3. R.... B....

    You just explain me that's crazy

  4. C.... R....

    I suffer from severe depression have for over 30 years I'm 49 and it's hard to get folks to understand it I do take medicine and it has helped but some days I am so sad and lonely. I think if I died who would care would anyone come to my funeral. I fight on for my wife and two daughters and that's it. It is sad to be this way but I have to keep on. There are days I sleep all day cause I can't move. Stay strong friends.

  5. j.... h....

    I love this. It reminds me of my writing....

  6. R.... C....

    this song made me cry the first time i heard cause i no longer felt alone anymore but try and get me to talk about it, thats my issue icant talk about it

  7. S.... B....

    Smoke weed! Never take their poison.

  8. S.... M....

    This hits me deep it's what I'm dealing with every day sucks

  9. j.... b....

    Fuckin...WOW...
    HOW TF DO YOU KNOW ME!??!

  10. B.... L....

    The best way to support Tom's channel: 1) Listen to the complete video. 2) Listen to the complete commercials - Don't skip! 3) And of course Subscribe and sign up for alerts.

  11. B.... T....

    So dope. Really, this shit is 🔥×10

  12. d.... ....

    Thanks Tom i turn to this every now and then. This makes me feel better when anxiety is lurkin due to being overwhelmed, trying to push forward. One day i will thank you in person.

  13. T.... W....

    Wow...100% how I feel. It's nice to know I'm not alone...yet sucks to feel this way.

  14. D.... ....

    ❤️🥰🙏🌻

  15. D.... ....

    ❤️🥰🙏🌻👁️

  16. D.... J....

    You are so relatable it's fucking terrifying.

  17. C.... D....

    Thank you I understand fully what you talking about.

  18. M.... D....

    For reall huh only thing that even helps in medical marijuana fam smoke some dank fuck the mid shit I'd eben grow for u. Totally get you. Heath Collins

  19. M.... S....

    Every word hit me twice so i posted it twitched

  20. J.... W....

    Tom.. I can not even tell you how much this hit me... I literally felt like the words came out of my mouth. I am watching this for like the 13th time. I am a newer fan of your awesome talent. I hope and pray for the best for you. You are the only hope music has.

  21. J.... M....

    Having ptsd from iraq, I never could ecplain how I feel or think. Then I watched this. Thank you so much Tom McDonald.

  22. U.... I....

    💪💪

  23. J.... W....

    Wow, I got Goosebumps......😕 truth!

  24. M.... B....

    Last line savagin it!!

  25. C.... W....

    💊 Thank You!

  26. A.... C....

    Tom... your loved... don’t forget that.... if your really looking?? Then turn to Jesus he never left you! He is waiting for you to invite him in to your heart!! There you will find peace... I did....things get a lot clearer... but it’s not easy.. in fact serving him things get harder as we grow in him... we learn to lean on him for strength...God bless

  27. A.... F....

    I lost my bro to suicide. He hit the wrong bottle my dude! Tequila will really killya! The gun shot that rang out rocked the whole town. Or should I say, shocked the whole town! RIP to the best DJ, dad and brother!

  28. N.... m....

    How did you conquer your anxiety? Or is it still there and you just found way get stronger ?

  29. K.... H....

    He believes in his damn self 🤟✌️💋

  30. D.... ....

    Cool spitting wit just vocal

  31. j.... ....

    I love this.
    I can totally relate.
    This is the best thing I have EVER heard.

    Thank you Mr. MacDonald, THANK YOU.

  32. N.... m....

    Wow all words that described how I feel and things and life are only difference is I quit heroin not alcohol not that both won't kill you anyway I definitely feel all those things I know I was someone different before am still looking for my smile hopefully you already found yours 💙

  33. m.... d....

    Tom MacDonald.

  34. m.... d....

    Your amazing man

  35. A.... S....

    True true. ✌&💘

  36. F.... A....

    I love this, but I hate that I relate to every word he's saying... Always check on your introvert friends and family, especially if you know they have issues, it helps, makes up feel less scared and anxious to know that people still care and worry

  37. A.... V....

    Goosebumps...

  38. K.... m....

    Being bipolar, having an anxiety disorder and PTSD, I never truly understand which emotion im feeling and wether its mine or not, the pills I take make me feel numb like the emotions im feeling aren't mine like they're borrowed I've been trying desperately most of my life to feel and it seems as though the harder i try the more numb i feel. For those who are struggling with mental illnesses or just mental health in general I want you to know that you are not alone and to keep fighting. One day you will know who exactly you are.

  39. b.... ....

    I have high axiety and I see a therapist for it. I can relate to you Tom. Keep keeping it real.

  40. K.... L....

    Hey bro that was fucking amazing. You just said what sooo many of us deal with on the daily 🔥👍 thanks for dropping that WOW .... And if you know u fucking know 👊

  41. S.... H....

    It can be a long road but it gets better with lots of work! 💚

  42. N.... ....

    This one really hits me so personally every time I hear it. Can you do more of these spoken words? ❤️

  43. T.... B....

    My dear wife called the title just by listening to your words Tom. She straight said “that’s anxiety”. She has it so bad, I try my best to understand it. I can’t fix it. I can just be in it with her.

  44. N.... ....

    Damn this hit home hard

  45. I.... H....

    i felt this in every atom in my fucking body

  46. a.... c....

    @Tom Macdonald, you saved my life with your musical expressions. Between my PTSD, anxiety, and self medicating/substance abuse/drug addiction; I couldn't realize in that wavelength that I was about to die and you helped me to become aware of not only my personal state but the state I strive toward.
    As an artist myself, you showed me that I'm not alone in my thought/feelings and that there is a medium out there available to me, allowing me to more ably express my vision. As well you inspire courage in me in the face of stupidity and ignorance. I know what it is to be fundamentally misunderstood and for people to attempt persecution in regard to my character.
    I was so stuck on my guitar, composition of rock music, sex, and drugs that honestly my art was probably more confusing and too poetic rather than communicative.
    I sincerely thank you Tom.

  47. J.... F....

    God I wish u woulda ripped further into this

  48. A.... B....

    Wow so real and honest by far the best artist in a long time for me ❤️

  49. A.... H....

    That’s really deep and it feels good to know that there’s somebody that understands that. Much love you are one of the most incredible rappers I have ever heard. I haven’t heard anyone be this real since tupac

  50. T.... M....

    I can relate to the part where it says " if I didn't make a change I would have drank myself to death"

  51. E.... B....

    Manic,depressive and i had a mental breakdown lately. Hey life wanna throw more at me? Maybe kick me while i'm down.

  52. S.... S....

    We all love you Tom! Never give up on what you are doing. You are one of the realest rappers today, and us fans need somebody like you. Somebody we can relate to, and somebody we can swap opinions/feelings with. Somebody we can either meet eye to eye with or not. But regardless of all of that, it’s easy to see and say that you are a very humble and strong human being. And for that..us fans thank you for everything. Keep wishing on shooting stars, and always remember that we love/support you.
    Sincerely,
    Me and your fans♥️🤘🏻

  53. M.... F....

    I feel you man

  54. T.... C....

    You hit home bro.
    fuck!

  55. J.... F....

    Still here a year later. Didnt know how to explain how I felt. I always wished someone knew how I felt. Then I found the big dog tom MacDonald

  56. l.... r....

    I didn't like your couple songs I listened to. I got the message but wasn't my style. I respect your words and why you are doing what it is you do. God bless you, after 20+ years I've started back writing I may or may not see ya out there but either way we both will be heard.

  57. H.... C....

    Someone actually speaks on what I feel. I thought I was a failure for waking up with a panic attack. Just of thoughts of all the things I had to do that day already racing through my mind. For years I played kinda the role of the what I imagine Chris Farley was as the sad clown. Family functions I was the happy outgoing goofy life of the party. Get in the car and I was absolutely exhausted being what I thought everyone wanted and expected me to be. To be "normal" . I've made my circle smaller I do my own thing do what I need for me and my immediate family that's gotta be enough. Thank you. For making me feel like I'm not the only one.

  58. L.... ....

    Another combat vet here. Thank you brother. Stay away from big pharmaceuticals everyone.

  59. I.... l....

    This is my life spoken into words. I'm glad I'm not the only one. Depression and anxiety is a bitch.

  60. C.... 3....

    Beautiful

  61. K.... M....

    It's real brother

  62. p.... m....

    Tom got skillz

  63. J.... H....

    Crazy how ppl can dislike something so real

  64. R.... B....

    Damn bro this song is me all day doc puts me on meds get paid to listen but not care ..... I dont take anything they give me anymore because nothing helps

  65. B.... K....

    Make this a track🙌🔥🔥

  66. I.... ....

    Probably my favorite. Surprised being a fan for quite some time I just came across this.

  67. J.... W....

    This is so fuckin me keep doin what you do tom u have no idea how many people u save with this. Absolute poetry

  68. R.... J....

    Tom you need to watch comedy if you wanna smile they make you smile.......

  69. G.... N....

    And I can't get help

  70. G.... N....

    This hit me. I found this guy a month ago and I'm hooked. He is real. I wake up everyday in a panic ... We are on a ball floating in outer space. I'm always waiting for the next brick to break and crumble my foundation. I suffer too hard core to be so fucking normal. And I don't even take pills. I feel like May from the secret life of Bees and it's a struggle everyday to function and be me.

  71. D.... I....

    I have batteled anxiety for so long that I wouldn't leave my room at all. Until I stopped giving a single dam what people think. Now it's not bad at all! Also I overdosed and seen christ. knowing that he is real makes it better. Can't believe I ever believed that we came from nothing (big bang) and monkeys(Evo) smh.

  72. S.... G....

    Man I don't know why I'm tired, should I hide and try to escape that mindset? I've lied to myself the most, now I feel like dieing. Lost hope, like all my limbs are tied while I was tossed in the ocean.
    Drowned myself in my thoughts till I could not reach the surface. Feel that burning in your throat, it wasn't from the bourbon. It was from the words you wanted to say but couldn't, so you stored them in your brain on repeat, even though you shouldn't, and it becomes and endless cycle.

  73. *.... ....

    Damn bro, that's how I feel on a daily just no pills so I stay to myself I smoke mad blunts just to feel something more than my racing heartbeat!! 😔

  74. S.... C....

    F#cK"""Ahgghgghh ***** ***** "You've
    "The F#%K€n BEST" "MY BRA""" "
    "Dang... . I feel weak "
    "Im so impressed " its pathetic of me

  75. a.... L....

    Love u Tom

  76. X.... T....

    He’s special.
    He’s like the new em.
    He speaks the truth.

  77. S.... P....

    Ur so REAL , I am so in love with ur music , the music industry need u ... Congratulations ur the shit . KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK...

  78. C.... V....

    Well god damn. I feel this. I have some serious anxiety issues that are caused by a life of abuse. Every kind. PTSD sucks. I have to take such powerful medications for it or my heart beats so fast I cant catch my breath. I always feel I'm in danger. So to function...sort of. I have to be pretty heavily sedated. I hate it.

  79. R.... R....

    This is liteally me for the last year. If i do finally gdt to sleep, the first breath i take when i wake up is a total disappointment

  80. S.... C....

    This is real rap! It’s not all about drugs and money, fast cars #Hangovergang

  81. b.... b....

    Amasing

  82. S.... E....

    I’m glad other YouTubers are doing awareness for invisible mental illness. I struggle as well and did videos for mental health awareness. People really need to be educated on this subject. Love your music btw! Keep speaking the truth!

  83. S.... ....

    Story of my life their only thing missing is the codeine i'm on I suffer from depression and anxiety been ill for 6 years on the meds and more long before in silence I struggle to get out of it and sometimes I wish i can go bang and be done with it but somehow i keep holding on

  84. K.... C....

    My whole life been intoxicated, majority just fucking wasted.
    I tell myself tomorrow's the day, Then I rationalize all the defeat I tasted
    I convince myself the wars begun, just one more time for fucking fun
    6 months have passed,I'm on my ass, now up the stakes I've got a loaded gun
    I could end it now cause this game is trash, I could call it quits cause this life is whack
    Or I can load it up and hunt these demons, cock it back and let it blast
    Cause I'm not a quitter nor have I ever been, sadly that means the drugs too
    The line is drawn and not in sand, now tell me what do you fucking do
    Most of these issues they coming from demons, they never cease to fucking rest
    So cut off their mouths and cut off my ears and honestly I do my best
    Cause failure isn't quitting so don't let that make you grow tired or bitter
    All it means is something's off. time to add a new drop to the mixture

  85. m.... h....

    This was the first thing I ever seen from you. Little did I know what lied ahead. It spoke to me then and is so true how I felt then.

  86. D.... K....

    My rn is Chris By the way MacDonald

  87. D.... K....

    1# FAN MACDONALD

  88. J.... P....

    This is so crazy I feel the same way glad I'm not the only one going through this

  89. J.... B....

    It feels like you were speaking from my soul. U are what the world needs.

  90. c.... 7....

    I cant ignore the pills in the cabinet

  91. D.... ....

    Never give up Tom. You are a true gift to this world- musically and inspirationally. You preach the truth through your art form and let others like us know: We're never alone. Never lose hope. Never lose faith. United we stand, always. We love you.

    -Dustin L.

  92. C.... C....

    UNDERATED

  93. K.... B....

    It give me the chills when someone else says 90%of how I feel- thank you..

  94. g.... d....

    Wow.... thats fire

  95. X.... ....

    A year later and I still cry from this. Will I ever find that smile?

  96. D.... M....

    I never ask for help i just struggle with it secretly..facts love you tom

  97. I.... l....

    Shit is so true.