Teen Suicide - If I Cleaned Everything Lyrics

i never really looked at the lyrics before so this whole time i thought the speaker was singing “i can’t keep my foot down” as in he can’t stick to his words, people take advantage of him, he’s too tired to care anymore, etc.
turns out the lyrics are “i can’t keep my food down.” as someone who has a mother that was once bulimic, witnessed a loved one die of cancer, and is diagnosed with ADD, that hits much, *much* harder.

n u m b m y p a i n

this song feeds my depression

I just searched how to cry my fucking eyes out

i am not alone
i know it won't be long

thanks sam

one more week
and things are at an end
i am not myself
i haven't been in months

i am not alone
i know it won't be long
the sky is turning black
i can't keep my food down

it will be cold
it will be blue like you

when i come back home
everything stops
getting out of bed
is the hardest part

Probs reading into the title too much, but whenever i’m really depressed or thinking about suicide I think about what people would think of me from what i’ve left behind- and I feel a need to clean and straighten up so they’d think well of me. That’s what this song makes me think of, and it’s healing but also so fucking painful to have what i’m feeling resonate w so many others

i feel so numb

ash leigh Same :))

the sound perfectly embodies the special type of loneliness i’m feeling...
my heart is heavy
i don’t know what to do

Hexxed The Thief me too :^(

i feel so lonely and like i am alone in the world. every day i feel so helpless, and like nothing has a purpose. life drains me

i want to die to this song.

I am not myself. I haven't been for months.

i used to listen to this at my worst, it feels very... weird, i dont know to listen to it again. Im glad im better

Memories and feelings are very difficult to remove from music. It carries all of the emotions you felt and associated with it for an indefinite period of time, a lot of music I've listened to during my journey through depression is very hard to listen to now. It doesn't just sound like the music, it sounds and feels like the part of my life that the song helped me get through, and that feeling is almost palpable. It is nice coming back to such songs and realizing you don't feel that shitty anymore, though.

I'm glad you're feeling better nowadays, keep going. :)

Merry glad you're better

Same here

I love this band.

it got better for a while

platonic I hope you are okay

I love this..

This song makes everything okay for just a while.

American Pleasure Club’s (formerly known as Teen Suicide) new album ‘A Whole Fucking Lifetime of This’ is out 2/16, listen to “this is heaven & id die for it” right here: https://youtu.be/MtHifoG2kgM

Run For Cover Records my boy

masive depresive thugs.

Jake Diaz Astopilco depressive*

can we talk about how sam ray's voice is literally the greatest

navewindre we will more when they start releasing music under the new name

Its just so beautiful

That viola kills me

Ben lines sameee

would you come back?

zack never :(

it's ok. don't worry about me. it's going to be ok. :)

zack its never ok

believe me. it is. if it's not ok now, it will be ok