Tech N9ne - Suicide Letters Lyrics






[1st Verse]

Picture me
In a casket
Blasted
Never nobody
Knew how long
The pain lasted
Keep my eyes tight
I'm frightened
But I fights like Tyson
When playin' this game of life
I'm losing
Longing to be enlightened
Absorb my mind state
Reduce the crime rate
And take me out
When running toward the Lord
I see 'em fake me
Out shook me
So from church I play hookie
Listen to the words of a brother
The sick stutters
So you better better
Get the get the bags ready
Comes a killer killer
Like Skagnetti
My brains contaminated
Hella rotten
Wasn't me that killed you
Who was it what was it
The effects of the mildew
My brain's wilted
In my eyes the world is a bit tilted
Lord take me away
Before somebody else gets killed
Blood spilled
Seriously
This is the letter to my homies
I'll be missin'
God told me to behold a pale horse
But I didn't listen
It's hard man
My life is scarred man
I'm losing my mind
So now it's time
Sincerely sign
N9NE

[Chorus]

I just wanna die
I don't want to wake up
I don't wanna cuz
That's the way that I feel
I'm barely hanging on
I don't want to wake up
I don't wanna cuz
That's the way it has to be

[repeat 2x]

[2nd Verse]

I made your life a living hell
With my infidelity
Remember your telling me
All I give a damn about
Is weed stems and melodies
Remember you
Spent 30 minutes in the hospital parking lot
Crying
When the blood test read
The baby of another woman was mine
99.99
You should've left
Along time ago like Mary J. say
Just let it go like Ray J.
Con't
I know your mamma heard
You yelling mayday
Spent my life trying to R-A to the P
You sick of me
Always bein' B to the R-O-K to the E
Now there's nothin'
Else left of me
I was a bum
But you still wanted some
Through the rain, snow and thunder
Foul ups , bleeps and blunders
But no man shall tear asunder
Is what you said
You should've put multi bullets
In my head
When you found that evil
Instinct was a song
Where the events actually went on
This is the letter
To my homie, my friend
Who put up with me for 8
So now to take me
Really quickly is my fate
I'm sorry
For making it hard
I know your scarred
I'm losing my mind
So now it's time
Sincerely sign
N9ne

[Chorus]

I just want to die
I don't want to wake up
I don't wanna cuz
That's the way that I feel
I'm barely hanging on
I don't want to wake up
I don't wanna cuz
That's the way it has to be

[repeat 2x]

[3rd Verse]

I love ya'll
The dynamic duo, my babies
It ain't your fault
That your daddy's crazy
Donny,
I miss your drumming like me
One day you'll be ruling
Leelee,
I miss you in my face
Yellin'
Daddy, what you doin'
You two are the reason
Why I'm still standing today
But I'm 1600 miles away
And you get my heart sinkin'
When I start thinkin' about you babies
I heavily start drinkin'
On a daily puffin'
I'm seeing my heart
I gots to toughin'
Can't see me leavin' my angels with nothin'
So I keep bussin'
Use my pain for you two
I've gotta come up in the game
So one day you can do the same with yours
Love you galore
And I ain't playin'
makin' me put an end
To this suicidal mind state sayin'

[chorus]

I don't want to wake up
I don't wanna cuz
That's the way I feel
I'm barely hanging on
I don't want to wake up
I don't wanna cuz
That's the way it has to be

[repeat 2x]





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  1. C.... G....

    Hey dude, yeah you reading this, everything is gonna be okay, I’ve lost three friends to suicide and the first one listened to this song on repeat for hours before he called everyone in his phone contact list in 2007. He was feeling down and I was the only one to answer. It’s only situational byllshit problems, you’ll be better soon, everything is going to be okay. You’re strong and pull through. Every year on his death day I listen to this song and am thankful he is still with me today, god bless y’all

    C.... G....

    He call this his death day, in 2007. It could’ve ended, he’s happy now with a wife and two kids

  2. J.... S....

    Squad help

  3. R.... m....

    Don't have any 1to wright my letter to I'm alone here

  4. J.... M....

    Thanks Tech!

  5. B.... K....

    This is literally my life story, I love my kids, you two are the reason I keep pushing.

  6. J.... B....

    Knew of you long before I liked you and I'm still not the biggest fan, and don't pretend to be, but this song is my favorite of yours and fucks me up!! Much respect!! Long live Tech!!

  7. J.... M....

    📝📝📜

  8. C.... K....

    How I'm feeling right now

    C.... K....

    Charlene Kanady chin up

  9. J.... L....

    Bruh......

  10. B.... W....

    This is what you felt that I deserved. So, your welcome. Thanks, now you can smile again.

  11. S.... P....

    Cuz if u see this its no good in my brain rn i jus need a blunt an company i hope its not late by the time u see this ✊

  12. W.... C....

    Pain Shared Is Pain Lessend.
    And Thats Word Yall.

  13. W.... C....

    This joint gives me chillz and....
    at the same time gives me SRENGTH....
    THIS IS SOME.STRAIGHT KANSAS CITY COLD ASS SHIT.... AND PLEASE REMEMBER......
    PAIN SHARED IS PAIN LESSEND.... IM OUT...... LIFE IS WORTH LIVING.

  14. C.... ....

    He just killed himself last night..RIP man.

  15. S.... H....

    La vals pizza and big red liquice drinks u c liquor bay farm island Phoenix $$$

  16. S.... H....

    Bay farm island

  17. S.... H....

    Cbo brotha lynch car witch home base skills

  18. S.... H....

    Midnight g block

  19. S.... H....

    Zodiac song scorpio down by bay farm island g black carry st car wash work g block

  20. S.... H....

    Uncle Danny back pak never throw Dan brown legend had it Jim world ace combat is saw part 5 is lemon debbi QBs Fillmore twin peaks Pete millz carmen bang bros.thx San fran

  21. S.... H....

    Kilo movie teck ni9ne

  22. S.... H....

    In real art of making ashtray. Hoe-spin krell ell mangal lexetere mac danyzybow .stay Chevron csesheeii$$$$

  23. S.... H....

    Jan ca p world rim pie ward regime mobzilla 2019 cd.garden block not a cinnamon roll a grandad didn't pay Rick Ross Katy Perry in the llblack keekeolunafrackieabreham 502121

  24. S.... H....

    Teck nine arron yellas zink markileyh sparley made fuckezz zzzzzzzooooo knoland pak mizziz all ya .belgit for sure kkkekoman .olkand athletics remedy jansport .yes indeed feed the needy

  25. M.... M....

    This song was my only true friend in middle school. 💞 7 years ago and I still love you.

  26. j.... ....

    *Moooood AF* 💀👻

  27. B.... S....

    Wow. 🤔

  28. S.... D....

    TECH🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

  29. S.... R....

    Everyone who has thought about doing this knows the date and it's basically a 2nd birthday because you know your living on borrowed time

  30. E.... W....

    Anyone know some more songs like this or just artist. It would be very helpful. Thanks

  31. M.... M....

    I like that natural born killers reference

  32. L.... ....

    At least more people understand even tho I'll never meet them thanks tech I'm struggling

  33. A.... C....

    Oh im feeling this shit now 😫

  34. C.... ....

    Going thru some dark things right about now, Tech is always a go too..

    C.... ....

    christian Wright listen to “EMJ” by tech and the crew it’s a good one for when you’re in that mood

  35. J.... R....

    Sizzlin

  36. T.... G....

    You know what I'm sizzlin

  37. S.... 4....

    Always loved this song

  38. j.... l....

    "The fans love my pain cuz it makes for great music" such a wonderful artist for converting his trials into poems, his influence has changed my life for the better and im sure most that listen to these older tracks will say the same, i know you aint gonna here this but thank you tech for passing on your lifes influences to the people, i hope you two faced fans will bite your tounge next time you decide to speak ill on the 9 and remember all these 6 tracks he has put out to help yall

  39. #.... e....

    thank you for all your helping true ur musik

  40. A.... M....

    There right now Tech. I feel this music like no other, 'cause it's me inside. Maybe I'll make it to that show in June, maybe I can hang on....

  41. R.... M....

    I was burned so bad it made me cold...

    R.... M....

    *RAIDER NATION*

  42. C.... R....

    tech n9ne has saved me from killing myself multiple times and I wish I could tell him that he has saved me. I have a strange music tattoo on my arm to remind me that suicide is a permanent solution to a temperary problem

    C.... R....

    Codee Rodine Keep pushing man. When you're at the bottom the only other way is up.

    C.... R....

    C B thank you

    C.... R....

    Codee Rodine see dude, I ain’t got a temporary problem I can’t see my kid, and it kills me every day. I’ve been struggling with the solution of ending it, not because of where I go after it ends, what stops me is what it’ll do to my family and it kills me even more because there’s nothing I can do.

    C.... R....

    @Genwba Here Hang in there Things get better

  43. V.... J....

    I Love you Tech , you know how depression feels when not alot of people do . Felt this way too many times

  44. C.... S....

    Id like your videos if they didnt cut out on me and skip to the end on every single one. Only channel that does it and has some of my favorite lyric videos

  45. I.... E....

    Related

  46. c.... f....

    dude ... you already know..

  47. N.... V....

    Been on the verge of ending it all before. Tech leads us on like he was promoting the idea of suicide being the way out so people like me are very into the lyrics because were can relate top them. Then he literally pries our eyes open. Suicide is the guaranteed way top come back and start all over. we are here for a reason. He already knows he saved my life. Nothing but love and respect for Tech None!!

  48. S.... H....

    cool song

  49. A.... B....

    that first verse is one of the best most poetic verses I've ever heard.

  50. H.... ....

    this some deep shit