SXYE - To Blame Lyrics

I lost all my friends
To a one night man named fear
They asked if I would come along
But I chose to stay right here
I met a shining girl who loved me, anyway
But I decided not to stay
I decided not to stay

We'd go on adventures to the sun
We'd swim through the chemistry of love
Take a walk through all the broken memories
Of the ones I forgot to keep
The ones I forgot to keep

And I told you that I couldn't see love
And I told you that this wouldn't be enough
And you told me I was rational
You told me I was right
But I cried through all the night
Were your tears as bad as mine?
Do you miss me quite the same?
'Cause I think I am to blame

You're the only one that's ever made my heart beat quite that way
But I threw it all away
Yeah, I threw it all away
I sang you songs
I kissed your face
I held your hand
I gave you space
You loved silently
And I love louder than my mind
Would our differences provide?
You will never be mine

And I told you that I couldn't see love
And I told you that this wouldn't be enough
And you told me I was rational
You told me I was right
But I cried through all the night
Were your tears as bad as mine?
Do you miss me quite the same?
'Cause I think I am to blame

Your kisses seemed so false
With me, you looked so bored
Have I done something wrong?
Have I sung the wrong song?
And when we kissed goodbye
After we shared three nights
You didn't see to care
You wanted out of there

But when I called your phone
I though you weren't home
Tried to deny the brute
That I was boring you
I felt so rejected
Got no sleep in my bed
But, when you kicked me out
I just felt kind of stuck?

Your voice sweet like sun
Your tongue, relaxation
I second guessed myself
I thought it'd go so well
I heard you through the phone
Those tears, you can't control
Did I fuck up?
Or did I go?

And I told you that I couldn't see love
And I told you that this wouldn't be enough
And you told me I was rational
You told me I was right
But I don't believe you
I don't believe you
I don't believe you

'Cause I miss you
And I need you
And I don't know why
I thought I'd be the same
I understand now
I can't see myself with anyone else
I'll promise I'll be better
If you promise you'll be held