Mac Lethal - The Story Of My Drug Addiction Lyrics






When I was 23 my mother passed away
I didn't know that I'd experience my blackest days
I couldn't feel a thing, I was broken
I needed something more than just drinking and smoking

A friend of mine said "I heard you got some problems
Well, I can help you fix 'em, buddy try some OxyContin
It makes you warm like butter on a biscuit
It's just like Heroin, but it's not addictive"

I took one and felt amazing and warm
I felt like a little baby reborn
I felt like I was laying in a cradle in a blanket
As a hundred thousands angels got on stage to perform

Softly playing the horns
I didn't know that I was entering a dangerous storm
Or I guess I didn't care, 'cause I ain't even look
I tried these stupid pills one time and I was hooked

I started taking pills every single day
If I felt anxiety or pressure, it's OK
I would take a pill, then grind it up and snort it in my nose
I was so damn high, I didn't feel the torture in my soul

People started saying "Mac, I think you're just a bit unstable"
Thanksgiving dinner, nodding out up at the kitchen table
Every single fucking bit of cash up in my savings
Went, so I could satisfy my cravings

I wrecked a car, then I wrecked another car
I didn't care, I was high out on fucking Mars
I used to be a sweet kid on the monkey bars
Now I'm just a junkie, hoping I don't get drunk and barf

In my sleep, I was stuck out in the rain
I guess I finally figured out that something had to change
You gotta understand, if I couldn't find pills
I'd be on the bathroom floor nauseous and ill

I started doing research
I couldn't afford rehab, I couldn't make those fees work
Plus I didn't want to treat it like a second home
I didn't want to take subs, fuck Methadone

My fans knew that I was high, they could tell ya
I got an e-mail from a girl named Bella
Who told me about her husband, a guy named John
Who ran a website Complete Kratom dot com

In a company at perfect peace
She said "We sell this stuff called Kratom
Get online and research it, please", so I did
I read about Kratom, a lot of addicts online said that it saved them

So I ordered Kratom from John's website
And it showed up on my front porch the next night
And then I drank some mixed with OJ
It made all my withdraw symptoms go away

And for the first time I didn't need a pill
Every second of this story that I'm telling you is real
I was no longer a slave locked in a dungeon
I no longer needed OxyContin to function

I started working out, I started lifting weights
I started doing Jujitsu, I started feeling great
Eventually I even met my wife
I swear that I'm reborn, I've been living a second life

But the addict in me never died
Man, the addict in you will never die
Just accept it, just embrace it
Take the bad shit in your life and replace it

Find things that you love, get addicted to 'em
Stay away from the drugs, 'cause that shit'll ruin
Your life, you're always gonna be an addict
You see? You gotta get high naturally

Good luck





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  1. b.... ....

    Took the depression in my life and replaced it with working on my hobbies and passions. Depression can be addictive too.

  2. n.... s....

    Just the title, reminded me if my dad, just, why why was my dad like that, now my dad is moving back in, I'm scared, I'm only 11 my dad was like this for 8 years of my life my mom enabled my dad now I'm scared, why me, why, now my arms are wrecked, because I did that to myself in so depressed and sad and I have so much anxiety from my dad yelling and abusing us

  3. J.... M....

    Truth bro I respect it

  4. y.... ....

    this was so touching im crying

  5. B.... D....

    Who ever disliked can fuck off what if you were in his position

  6. L.... G....

    Love you mac

  7. M.... S....

    Man Drugs Will Hurt You

  8. t.... ....

    "just take the s**t in your life and replace it"


    That is great life advice..thanks, I will remember that

  9. R.... S....

    You will always be an Addict but you gotta get high naturally ❤️

  10. J.... C....

    It does look like he does that marry jo wanna
    Yes I spelled it like that as a joke

  11. V.... G....

    If you do drugs they
    Mess you up don’t do drugs

  12. S.... M....

    Wow... I'm 11 and this Makes me think... I don't wanna Do drugs. I know there bad

  13. M.... S....

    Whoever the 515 FUCKING people who disliked this video should go fuck themselves we love you Mac

  14. O.... H....

    *Likes video before it starts*

    20 secounds in: My God, UNLIKE THE VIDEO TO LIKE IT AGAIN!!!

  15. A.... E....

    I am addicted to pills, and they banned kratom here. I have no hope

  16. M.... 0....

    Stay strong my brother your such and inspiration on YouTube and this world. 😁💪🙌

  17. m.... d....

    that was deep

  18. A.... ....

    I know this is serious and all but this is heat

  19. R.... A....

    I lost my mom to i know how it feels

  20. .... ....

    I’m so glad you got your happiness I hope I find mine too

  21. .... ....

    My mom passed too and I started alcohol / weed / pain pills / Xanax

  22. N.... D....

    I thought you were on crack or harowen or some shit like that

  23. N.... D....

    I am scared 😱 for when I am 21

  24. J.... W....

    This woyld of been hard for you to do

  25. C.... T....

    while oxi mite not b addictive, taking anytng that makes u feel btr when u feel like shit is addictive. alcoholics, cig addicts and junkies ussually become what they are because they took the 'unadictive' stuff at the wrong point in their life. if he had taken it while he was happy, he would have had fun, instead of using it to escape his problems, and hence would not have been addicted. but because he took it when he felt like shit he got addicted. this story is very inspiring. thanks for sharing Mac

  26. K.... B....

    u are an inspiring guy bro. loved all ur videos. keep doing this always. and thank you for doing this thing.

  27. H.... P....

    512 people disliked this
    Wtf is wrong with u

  28. S.... C....

    I love drugs

    S.... C....

    WHAT IS WRONG WITH U

  29. B.... F....

    Real shit much respect for sharing

  30. m.... w....

    well i can rap 10 syllabus perseconds
    normally and upto 12 hardly
    can i give u challange any way .

  31. D.... ....

    My grandpa was a drug addicted and I never got to met him because he got into a drug deal gone wrong

  32. E.... ....

    5 years clean now, and to think that 5 years ago i almost died mixing snorting heroin with xanax bars. I should be dead, somehow i made it out alive

    E.... ....

    That's amazing man good for u

  33. C.... S....

    9 years now maybe 10

  34. P.... R....

    Hi I’m 14 and I’m addicted to drugs mostly cocaine

    P.... R....

    wait what

  35. G.... H....

    Mac, we are all proud of you for overcoming this drug addiction

  36. T.... G....

    Eminem much

  37. T.... ....

    my mom died when i was 5 from heroin then my dad got addicted and for the past year ive been with my grandmother and my dad is getting better

  38. Q.... ....

    I wish I had found this sooner... This hit direct and hard, unfortunately I am on methadone.. My Dr prescribed it and I shoulda known that it wasn't the right choice because, it was the same dr that gave me the script that put me here. Oxycontin is hell on earth, I hear you when you say you were on the floor when you couldn't find any pills... sadly man some of us are worse than ill, if I couldn't get enough for the day then I would be puking, couldn't sleep literally at all... I was awake for 24 hours so I started doing Coke... it made for 1000x worse withdrawals.. even on the pills my legs would shake all night like I had electricity shooting through my veins.. The PAIN was the WORST of it ,.... I would take a washroom break from my 10hr a day Factory job .. I would go there and scream as loud as I could if no one was there.. I have never felt that much pain before in my life and it was everyday I didn't have any, just kept getting worse and worse and I knew I couldn't get clean without losing my job .. somehow I had it in my head that I could if I kept trying.. I watched my life flush down the drain.. Girlfriend of 6 years left when she found out, I had to do something and that's when I got fired unlawfully still couldn't get rehab but I got a chance to get clean and I took it and ran with it .. now I am coming off of methadone a year later .. this shit is driving me literally insane.. if you read this please listen to your instincts... Don't even try it once even if you "think" you can handle it... you haven't seen the dark side of life and you never should. I am not religious but this made me as close as I have ever got to believing, so all my prayers go out to you who are suffering, there is an end and it doesn't have to be your life.. please go ask for help, people won't ever look at you the same, I won't sugar coat it for you but it is worth it!

  39. Z.... H....

    mac and wes watson need to meet up and make a prison rap xD

  40. M.... H....

    Oxytocin will ruin your fkg life, haven’t take any in almost 2 months and i can already see what a dark place i wan in.
    Don’t try it

  41. M.... D....

    Was This Why "Lethal" Is In His Yt Channel Name?

  42. W.... G....

    What belt are you in jujitsu? Just curious.

  43. S.... M....

    nice sales pitch✌🏼👍🏼

  44. S.... M....

    americans: only kind of ppl where its a mass problem where they get addictet to ,,normal'' medicine lol

  45. A.... S....

    So brave 😭

  46. G.... G....

    wow he actually took drugs

  47. i.... g....

    it got me emotional!

  48. H.... W....

    *pause at **1:47**.*
    *thank me later ;)*

  49. A.... G....

    Why just why I think you should of said no and left instead of being stupid if I where you I would of bin a little bit smarter and never would took those drugs ya I would of bin smarter 📣📣📣

  50. D.... D....

    I fell u by brother wasn’t so lucky he passed over that stuff

  51. P.... L....

    Aww that's sad

  52. X.... ....

    This made me emotional 😭

  53. �.... �....

    I can buy them for very cheap here in the netherlands on the streets. Like 50 euro's can get my like 100 of them wich i can do over 3 months with.

  54. J.... N....

    This video hit the spot man

  55. M.... U....

    the dislikes are drug addicts

  56. j.... m....

    I feel sorry for you and I know I'm just a kid

  57. d.... d....

    My grandfather and my father has cancer im takin codeine pills amphetamine pills lines smoking smrooms but i have to be sober cuz i aint got no money thinking about robbing markets to get some money to have fun with my bros idk anymore. This was good track but probably it wont chance me!

    d.... d....

    Bro I don't know you or you're story but I've seen where that story ends if you keep the no chance for you mindset. It's not good trust me. But you've got to wake the fuck up! Their is a chance for you their is a chance for everyone just have to take action do research stay focused on fighting the addiction and winning. And remember you're not alone in any situation you just have to reach out find your purpose.Because ruining your life or even worse dying to some stupid fucking pill or and drug isn't what you're purpose. You've got this I have faith is you.

  58. B.... M....

    bro i’m hooked on nic and i’m only 18 been doing it for 3 years vaping is gonna kill me bro....i might try that stuff i hate wasting my money on the shit

    B.... M....

    Let me tell you something ...
    I am only 14 but I can only tell you now the best thing to do is get it of your mind , now I know it isn't as easy as it sounds but it's all mental if yo can convince yourself that you don't need it your body will except it . It's like jumping into a cold pool , you just have to do it ...

  59. S.... M....

    Love you mac x

  60. C.... ....

    I used to be sexually addicted. I’m free but I still feel guilty about the past I just hope by using music I can help others by talking about problems.

  61. A.... D....

    Kratom saves

  62. M.... v....

    Some of your best work, can't say anything else

  63. N.... M....

    My name is Nicholas I need help, I'm addicted to meth and I really don't want to do it, it's my surroundings and the town I live in

  64. P.... L....

    Been there man...Glad you got out too!

  65. c.... t....

    Man if only juice wrld didn't do all those drugs. Everytime someone dies from drugs I watch this video. Thanks mac I needed this

  66. S.... K....

    I need that

  67. x.... s....

    holy fuck u snorted coke

  68. m.... l....

    But this was crazy I did not know that was going to happen this is the best rap He has ever made though he would threes

  69. M.... N....

    Drugs are deadly. Don't be fooled by their warm and cuddly feeling. Make sure you stay away from them :)

  70. J.... H....

    I wish this was on spotify

  71. R.... M....

    Mac im so glad you got help and im afraid that if you didnt quit you would not be the great rapper we know today as mac lethal

  72. L.... ....

    My weed is gonna make me high naturally too.

  73. m.... ....

    Congrats on your sobriety 😇

  74. M.... H....

    I use Kratom because of this song now

  75. M.... B....

    Kratom is physically addictive too and the withdraws will fuck you up on and off for months. Anyone that says otherwise hasn't been off it long enough to go through PAWS or the panic attacks after PAWS while your brain is rebounding.

  76. P.... G....

    its a wonderfull story, but that beat also, how can i get that beat?

  77. B.... M....

    You’re the man Mac - Wow. What a message!

  78. K.... S....

    I'm stuck on the subs

  79. j.... a....

    Do u make your own beats?

  80. Q.... A....

    How do we send an email to u

  81. Z.... W....

    Im proud of my dad hes been clean for 2 years

    Z.... W....

    Here's the thing YOU DON'T NEED IT TO LIVE ITS USELESS

  82. T.... N....

    Your the best always stay strong

  83. J.... Z....

    I’ve been using kratom for 5 years, it is a amazing plant, I was in the same situation as you

  84. R.... J....

    Hey mac, and friends,
    I'm a struggling addict, I'm ready for change,
    Can someone advise me on what type of Kratom to use & how much ?

    I'm ready to do this, please, someone help me!

  85. S.... F....

    Powerful story thanks for sharing

  86. M.... F....

    We love you don’t let drugs take you away

  87. D.... R....

    @MacLethal did Kratom REALLY take ALLL ur withdrawals away??? I been stuck on them liquid handcuffs (methadone) & I'm DESPERATE 2 get off it! I didnt fight SOO hard 2 get & stay clean 2 just b a slave 2 this shit!! Methadone withdrawals tho r SOO HORRIFIC & LAST MONTHS, so I wonder if kratom would really work for methadone withdrawals. How many years where u on OC's or opiates b4 u started the Kratom & how did it work? U stop pills 1 day, next day started Kratom & had no withdrawals?? I know this is a video from year ago, so I'm worried u wont see this, but anyone else in comments if uve used Kratom to kick hard drugs (& especially methadone) but any opiates, ID REALLY APPRECIATE ANY & ALL ADVICE! IM SICK OF LIVING ON A FUCKING CLINIC, WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!💯🙏🙏💖

  88. L.... M....

    Stay wit the green but don’t be a feen but if possible just stay clean I know easier said than done but I’m tellin you at the end of the day you’ll have won over all of the depression and stress it will be the best if mac’s words could reach you because they are true it’s very hard to get off of drugs 420 blaze das wus up but if you don’t do that then just be on top of your facts and all though we all have problems I know some worse then others but one of the worst is addiction man I can tell from my brother but I won’t get into that but damn it’s so bad just to feel like you need it but just keep breathing and just keep healing and go to school who cares if they say you ain’t cool and dude ima end it with a fuck what you heard because I’m a nerd and I always use that great green herb

  89. W.... C....

    What you get for dissing Tom

  90. B.... A....

    Mac you're a role model.

  91. C.... E....

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  92. 1.... ....

    Great song 🎶

  93. P.... R....

    This is one of the best things I have ever heard Mac Lethal keep up the amazing songs and raps love this guy so much 💙

  94. M.... B....

    What was the name of it? Im on suboxone but I'd rather not be on anything! I got put through the windshield of a car. And my Dr just kept me on pills. So then i3was addicted and then to the subs. Please lmk more about that!! I would love it!! Thank you

  95. A.... M....

    "Get high naturally" what Like DMT.

  96. I.... B....

    that one really hit home!!

  97. E.... G....

    Song???

  98. f.... ....

    Sorry to hear makes me sad to hear about all of this

  99. M.... L....

    I just realized the other day that I haven’t touched a narcotic in 8 years. There’s an amazing power in using natural plants, exercise, emotions, and experiences to replace an addiction to drugs. Love. Martial arts. My career. My wife and kids. All of these things replaced it and I haven’t looked back. I’m in the best place I’ve ever been in and I don’t take that for granted. If you’re battling this epidemic, there’s definitely a way out. Stay strong and take action.

    M.... L....

    Where can I get Kratom?

    M.... L....

    Mac Lethal where can I get Kratom ?

    M.... L....

    You definitely should be proud of yourself to simply be able to analyze and better your self especially for the fam

    M.... L....

    heroine is from a plant aswell🤔

    M.... L....

    I was gonna call bullshit and troll at first but I saw your eyes you can see the truth in someone's eyes whether there been through horror seen the terr8bke state of mankind or.if they st Ill have that glimmer of hope and innocence