Icon For Hire - Under The Knife Lyrics

If you see this, please inform me if you actually believe that bullshit that all emo kids hurt themselves

This song describes me, help

This song is great but 0:12 made me wheeze

I don’t cut anymore but I used too and so this songs brings me back and makes me realize how strong I am because now I talk when I’m sad or something. I used to not talk or anything. I can’t believe she still makes amazing music. Paramore changed to more pop sounding music which I don’t like that much so I admire her for staying true to the music she made before. Luckily I don’t have scars

I love your Lyrics Icon for Hire. this describes how i've felt many times in my life right now including all the times i've cut my wrists not for attention but cause i was in so much pain and nobody cared where i live except Parents.

Hi I'm 10 and I I'm in the dark place in my mind

I relapsed after 6 months clean 😭😭 I love this song so much

Could she win a Grammy next Sunday

I'm in 9th grade. I have attempted cutting myself before, every time I did I thought of this song. I don't let other people know I listen to this song because they say "it'll provoke you and give you ideas" no. It doesn't. If anything this song helps me stay away from hurting myself. I honestly think I would have started cutting a long time ago if it wasn't for this song.

Thanks Ith

I was a cutter and 8 months ago I was going to commit suicide once and for all. I am 17 and I have suffered from depression and have been suicidal ever since I can remember... And eversince as usual noone used to care...I asked my parents to take me to the doctor when I was 11 or 12 I guess.. They said noone gets depressed at such a small age its all in ur head.. Anyways so I found this song on Pinterest... I downloaded it and I used to listen to it for like the whole time and used to cry... Or when I used to think that noone cares I used to listen to this and idk it gave me so much hope that someone cares and someone it there for me... Anyways back to the story I was going to die cause the person who I trusted the most, more than myself, the only person who I thought cared, the only "my person" that I had in my life, my sister, said something so hurtful that I can't even explain it in words... The words were all said out of anger but they had very bad impact on me, I was so scared and hurt and sad and what not, so I decided that, its enough I suffered a lot and should die cause that is what I deserve and nothing is going to change anyway... I went to a very isolated place with a blade, my phone some cash, I saw all the pictures of my family and my sister and I cried, I cried so much cause it was hurting like crazy, I remember crying to the point where I felt like I am going to faint, but then I started to cut and I don't know how many times I cut but I remember seeing blood everywhere.... I decided that I will jump in front of a metro train and end it all and while I was on my way to the station I kept hearing this song in head, the voice getting louder and louder, I tried to ignore it but I just couldn't cause it was as if someone was playing it for me and the line "cause self hatred never took me where i wanted to go" kept repeating and this was the line that always gave me so much strength, and all of sudden Idk what happened I snapped out of that deep self hatred and I turned around and came back i sterelised my wounds cause as usual noone cared but for the 1st time i was not very upset about this fact. That day this song and my will power saved me... Now I am healing mentally and physically and have been clean since 6 months... I am At a better place now so guys have faith, even if noone cares, care for yourselves and fight for yourself cause u are worth it ❤️

I love that you sing from the heart and your words mean soo much. Or at least they spoke to me I'm just glad I found this when I did....thank you

This band could be renamed "Emo's Diary."

I needed this tonight. Thank you.

Growing up, I just exercised a lot. I didn't inflict other harm on myself until Virginia.

This reminds me of my fifth grade self. I would cut myself because I thought I was not worth anything. It gave me such happiness afterwards that I got addicted. Thanks so much for helping me quit.

Great band love them keep up the great work Ariel and band.

The piano part brings a shiver up my spine every time.

I always admired how she acknowledged that self harm becomes an addiction. So many things I've heard is always "Just stop 🙃" But it seriously becomes an addiction. It's not as easy as "just stop" It's a process and she's one of the only artists I've heard who talks about that.

I'm crying hard to this. But I'm not gonna cut or hurt myself.
It just hurts so bad inside I just lay in bed unable to move. But at least she understands and speaks out a part of my mind right now.

September 26, 2016 I was shot in the arm driving to work. That is my only scar besides work scars on my hand. But I find under the toes is the most inconspicuous place to draw some fresh clean drops of blood for purpose, not pleasure. Under the toes leaves no scars. I think I was dabbling in the wrong magic and that's why I was shot, and I truly believe God spared me, so no I am not your average self cutter...thanks for the inspiring words.

Love it

😍😍😍😍

1 1/2 months clean

This song helped me so much after my mom set me up for a rape on my 19th birthday and I just wanted the pain to end

This hits me hard. I can't put it into words.

this song help's me

I want to sing this song for my talent show but my school likely wont let me

"But you couldn't hide a heart made of glass."

Every night I come back to this song. My best friend of 5 years had showed me this song, right before he told me to kill myself.. it hurts still. But I’m better now. I’m at least a month clean..

Hey, I don't know how you've been since you wrote that. But i just want you to know any day clean is progress, and I'm sorry he did had he did. But now you can keep going to prove to him you are stronger then he seems to think you are.

I listen to this song multiple times a day... thank you Icon For Higher for voicing what we find so hard...

"You carved a special place for pain, so it came back to hurt you every night..."
That hit deep. Like, it brought tears to my eyes. I hear it echo in my head every time depression fills my head. Thank you Icon For Hire

"And when we were 15, we wouldnt dare let that sh*t be seen.."
That's me right now

coming back to this song, after the bullshit in middle school (i would listen to this song when i would be cleaning up the aftermath of a midnight crisis) and it makes me realize how far ive come with my sanity

Same. Congrats for being clean!

I just came across this band via youtube. This song makes me teary eyed because this is so accurate. It is like you were really talking with her, that's how relatable the lyrics are. "Drag my heart to the piano and let it sing for you." That lyric in the song is such a relief to hear. Pretty.

I really needed this, I've been clean for 217 days but I've been close to relapsing

Hold on babe❤

“I don’t care your intentions, I just want you to know my self hatred never took me where I wanted to go. At the end of the day, you know I still had to face that I can pick up the pain, but I can’t cut them away”
That line made me throw away the blade, and I’ll never EVER look back. Keep fighting, it’s worth it

I don't cut, I grate my knuckles against stone until they bleed, people don't class it as self harm so I don't get questioned

6+ months clean

i like this Lyric :
I don't care your intentions I just want you to know
My self hatred never took me where I wanted to go
At the end of the day, you know I still had to face
But I can pick up the pain, but I can't cut it away
And you know what else I can't do, is give you ten good reasons not to
I've racked my brain with clever sayings of all the things you ought to do
But you know I think if there was something I could say
They would've thrown it on a brochure and sent you on your way

I relate to this so fucking much bc at the age of 12 I started getting bullied real bad and so every night I wished it would stop and I even tried to make it stop by cutting myself, ive been in and out of the hospital since then and I'm 21 today but I still have those thoughts and honestly I'm glad my new meds are helping me bc without them I'd probably be dead by now. If I can fight it then so can you!

TOGETHER WE ARE STRONG!! I love you, so keep fighting your demons. ❤

If anyone's struggling with the urge there's an app called Calm Harm you should check out first

2019 anyone..?

TW:
at 16 years old, i have been self harming for 5 years. i haven't actually self harmed in about 8 months but i can never say that i have stopped because i can't. i am incapable of stopping myself anymore, but this song? this song makes me think, makes me hesitate. 5 years of my life, taken by something as simple as self harm. what started as scratches soon became gaping wounds needing stitches but through all of that, there was Hope. i am never going to be fully okay again but i have accepted and come to terms with that because songs like this are changing the game for people like me 5 years ago. if i'd heard this 5 years ago, i probably wouldn't be where i am today. but then again, maybe i would. i guess there's no way of finding that out.

keep your hope, if you take anything away from this comment. a dear friend told me that. even when there's nothing positive, there's always hope. good things help but when you can recognise the signs of being hopeful, you will be okay. one day, it won't hurt to breathe anymore. one day, you'll wake up and truly Wake Up. one day, you'll feel alive again. maybe it won't be because you kept hope, but keep it regardless, yes? you'll be thankful if you do. i know i am.

I am currently in recovery of self harm. I was 2 months clean and relapsed in September. Was clean for about a week and relapsed again. Became almost a month clean and relapsed saturday. Not looking for pity. I just want to say this song is helping me. I only found it recently, and I've started to listen to more music by ICON FOR HIRE. Didnt want pity, just wanted to thank ICON FOR HIRE for this song. <3

Just keep trying. I almost relapse every couple weeks but I find something to anchor me down.

Dear icon for hire, I used to self harm a lot and I was needing a voice and your music gave me my voice. Thank you for being my inspiration and I had releapses but I didn't give up because your music keeps me going when I need a pick me up. Thank you I'm nearly a month clean but I was at an year before so I know it's possible - Amanda

I never really cut for the pain, like a lot of people do, I cut because I wanted to see blood, but I covered my scars with tattoo's, now I don't cut because I don't want to destroy the art that I suffered through hours of pain from the needle to achieve. I know not everyone is into tattoo's, but for me, they're what saved me, in a way, now I have one spot on my thigh I just prick slightly enough to get a tiny trickle of blood when the worst comes to the worst, nobody ever sees it, and it doesn't hurt or show as a scar, but it's enough for me. I hated my scars though, I always kept them covered. Even in summer I roasted to death in school wearing my uniforms school sweater, when everyone else took theirs off and just had the uniform t-shirts. I even had to ask the exam invigilator to take the compass away from me during the exam because I didn't trust myself with anything with a sharp point. They refused, and then because I was trying so hard not to cut because i was stressed over the exam too, I passed out. I then failed the exam. Totally fair.


On a similar topic, I'm not trying to be hateful, but unfortunately there is a lot of kids/teens these days that "glamorize" mental illness, say they're crazy or depressed, but never understand the reality of how it really is to suffer from a mental illness. (such as the people who get Schizophrenia and "multiple personality" disorder (actually called Dissociative Identity Disorder) up, and ironically, I happen to have been diagnosed with both) and yes, there are people out there who literally do cut themselves for the "emo fashion" or for attention, and it's terrible really. I feel that because of this, so many people (such as the exam invigilator) just don't listen to people who claim that they are suffering with mental health issues so much anymore, because they assume it's all an act. Please stop glamorizing mental illness, people. It's not cool or trendy to have one, it's like living hell sometimes, and worse when we aren't believed for years because "it's just teenage acting up" no, it wasn't. It took me from age 12 to 21 to actually get any diagnosis, because they kept palming me off as just being a "problem child" when I clearly wasn't. You don't realize that when you're putting on this crazy act that you're hurting people who really do need the help. :/

Her music is just on another level. She sings the truth. She speaks the fucking truth.

This is the most beautiful song ever. I have been like a year clean and finally getting to a hospital for removing my scars.

i found this song on a wattpad story

3 days clean (I really wanted to yesterday, but I stopped myself)
Your music really helps, I listen to it whenever I have the time.
Keep it up
(gives fake smile)

Kira 101 nice and if you need someone to talk to ik it’s weird but I know the feeling of wanting to die so you and whoever else can talk to me

@My Falling in Veil Sirens Rivalry Romance thank you
☺️

Kira 101 welcome 💜

Yo, you still clean?

@April Flowers surprisenlly, yes 😊

I love you 😍👌

Fucking. Amazing!!!

actually i used to cut i just stopped this year but i've never said anything

You go! That's great

"emo kids like to hurt themselves" i hate this so much. Im emo because I like the style and music. Stereotypes are stupid. Yeah its true for me but people always joke about it and it makes me very sad 😕 edit: no, im not angry because she said it im angry at people who always tell me this

It's the point.
It's sarcasm.

@Nadzieja Ewelina i know im not stupid. Im just saying that i hate when people tell us this

‘Emo’ music saved my life I’ll never be able to repay mcr they’ve helped me through so much

@Sneep Snoop same

@Nadzieja Ewelina i don't think it sarcasm. It's calling out a harmful stereotype

Dear everyone here

You are beautiful, amazing,talented, smart, AND YOU DESERVE LIFE, god did not put you on this earth for no reason. He wants you to keep going. Cause ya know what?

NEVERMIND,
Nobody loves you
Nobody thinks ur talented
Nobody thinks you deserve life


Guess what?, My name's nobody

A younger version of me needed this

This was my first time ever hearing this song. It really made me cry. I'm 15 and was in a mental hospital when I was only 12. I've been clean for 7 months now and my family still calls me a coward for "being too weak to face things" . this song d's so very true. Sometimes you open up thinking you'll be supported but end up having more reasons to cut. Thank you for this amazing song! I really mean it. Its not even a sad song. It's a sincere one. Thank you.

2 mouths clean 😁😁😁😁

Congrats!

Every time I listen to this song it feels it was sung right out from heart

I'm sad there's no tutorial for the piano accompaniment

Ariel is one heck of a writer isn't she? She is a gifted artist good damn

Omg.... i was hurting and i talked to one of my friends, they told me about this band and honestly... this exact song is how i feel

Loved you guys in my youth, struggled with SH and ED most of my life. Came upon this song when I needed a reminder that I'm not alone <3

Beautiful voice 😀😁😁😍

Offensive comment here but... 👏I 👏dont👏 care👏 how👏 many👏 how 👏 days👏 you 👏 are 👏 clean.

Shut up. That's literally so rude. Why would you even say that? What's wrong with you?

Then👏go👏away👏m8👏

"hmm i feel bad about myself so i need to insult other people and write offensive comments"

Icon for Hire’s songs are amazing. I’ve never been able to find a band that can perfectly say how I feel as a mental illness sufferer without feeling sorry for myself. ❤️

Came here from Katelyn Nicole Davis first livestream.

3 weeks clean

This song saved me thank you

HOW MANY OF HER SONGS HAVE I BEEN LISTENING TO WITHOUT DAM KNOWING ?!

Ive never cut before but this band sings about how i feel all the time about this world

This was me at 16. I still have the scars now that I'm older.

Gonna be seeing them in concert. :3

I replied to a comment saying I was 4 months clean im now 5 months it's been hard to fight the urges but I ll tell you this quote " the cutting part is easy but regretting it is so fucked" self pain is not the answer there are people who care even if you don't see it

I know what you mean, and I know Badflower sings that quote. The first time I listened to that, I cried.

This song got me through many hard times, hearing it now makes me cry I love this song...

Her Words are so true ....

i am uncomfortable knowing this is emo, and even though my scars were not self inflicted this song still speaks to me.

My favourite part comes from "Listen, I know it's simplified from the other side..." to the end. Those words are deep and beautiful. Some singers show their feelings in their voice. I feel that Ariel is one of these singers.

Ariel's voice is similar to Maria Brink, but more pop-rock... So who's the daddy? 😏

One day clean

I love the song

I love this band so much, years ago I would listen to them to help me get through all of my mental illnesses, now im listening back on them and I want to start my own singing career to help those like this band helped me!!

I love this song it’s sad but truly amazing I had a best friend who committed suicide a few months ago and some may say this is fake or I’m a attention seeker but you don’t know me and I blame myself because I truly feel like I could have texted him more. My sister met him at a pep rally and I remember on our way home after that she said she approved of him sincerely because unlike most fake friends he gave her this vibe that let her know he was a true friend for me and I feel like it’s my fault because we grew apart because of school and I promised myself I would never do that but I did and now my other two best friends are sad because he’s dead and it’s my fault for not texting him and the bullies for bullying them because they felt like privileged too do that because of their parents.


Edit; I forgot to say thank you Ariel for writing it you may never see this and no one else might but who sees it can come here and talk

I'm so sorry for you☹💔

Mirja Mewes it’s ok thank yo though but it’s not your fault and if you ever need someone to talk to you can talk to me (ik it sounds weird )

This song literally saved my life.

Just discovered IFH and checked out multiple songs. This is definitely my favorite because it's real. Goosebumbs all over, very honest, very beautiful. Just WOW

It hits me hard when she says fifteen because I was fifteen when i started

It seems like Ariel understands my addiction better than I do. She explained what it's like better than i ever could.

https://youtu.be/b8ODZm6WfTo

@m3 tal c0 re Oh my god that made me cry so hard fucking thank you so much

I bare my scars as proof that i survived. Yes i cut. Yes i am not through my Depression and i dont think i ever will be. But i looked Death in the face 8 times and each time i endured. I have scars running up and down my arms. I dont bare them for sympathy or for people to ask me about them i bare them to show that i made it through that i survived the hardest point in my life. I show it as proof to others that they can make it through it as well. I tell the people in my server. "Don't cut....but if you HAVE to cut for a reason. The most harmful thing is to cut for no reason and that is the thing that destroys you."

Thank you

can someone explain cutting ? i have friends who do it and i tell them not to obviously bc its dumb but they say it isnt a choice ? and im like you dont have enough self control to prevent yourself from physically harming your body ? idu

You should never tell someone "just stop bc its dumb" this is so mean. They are probably going through something and they want to stop the pain in their head. You should talk about their feelings or just be supportive friend. Tell them that they can call u whenever they want and you cant really "explain cutting"

I know this is probably 2 years late but thank you for this song it helped me greatly through depression along with Get Well

OMG THIS SONG IS AMAZING !!! My new favorite song ever bc it’s about emo’s and cutting and not being afraid to show and stereotypes omg amazing 😪❤️❤️

I wasn't sure if I liked this song first but now that played it a few times ...m absolutely unbelievable the lyric the Rhythm the mixing up is just one of the best things you guys have ever done love it but not just that.. what I have heard from the new album is way better than I thought it was I guess I was just used to the older sounds which are still awesome but after given some listening you guys have grown so much in it sounds fantastic phenomenal job!

When I feel like the only option is self-harm, I listen to this song, and it reminds me that love is more powerful than my pain. ♥️

Same. That's why i love icon for hire🖤

Such a good song but no one told me i needed 3D glasses to watch lol

This song really helps me thank you 😥😥😥😥😥

Being emo stopped me from cutting, because this music really speaks to me so it's helped me through some personal shit thanks

Still living that Emolife this song bops 😂❤💯

i listen to this song every time i want to cut. it helps so much thank you icon for hire🖤🖤🖤

Physico but I love her

I've never cried so hard listening to a song because it's like someone understands what it's really like to be a person who self harms. It's such an ugly thing and people dont realize what its like to be at war with yourself. I cut myself from 11 years old to 23. Which I am 23 now soon to be 24. I can happily say i am 8 months clean from it. I still struggle to this day about it though. Anyone reading this know your not alone with this.