Clendening, Anna - I Found Myself Lyrics






I found myself in a sea of busy places, in a world of blurry faces
I found myself, on the edge of insanity, I found, I found me

My heart was beating, barely breathing but still alive
Lost along the way I'd given up my fight
Scattered to pieces all along the floor, within the brokenness
I found something more

I found myself in a sea of busy places, in a world of blurry faces
I found myself, on the edge of insanity, I found, I found me

I was broken, torn apart
Scars line my arms, on my sleeve I wore my heart
They remind me of what is real
No longer needing pain to feel

I found myself in a sea of busy places, in a world of blurry faces
I found myself, on the edge of insanity, I found, I found me

I found myself in a sea of busy places, in a world of blurry faces
I found myself, on the edge of insanity, I found, I found me

I found myself in a sea of busy places, in a world of blurry faces
I found myself,on the edge of insanity, I found, I found me





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  1. N.... A....

    I feels like nobody love me. Feeling unwanted. I just crying alone in my room. Strarring blank. What's going to happen next.. idk.

  2. J.... r....

    Always be your own hero and save yourself

  3. j.... h....

    Suicide doesn’t stop your pain, it passes it to someone else.
    Let this sink in for a moment.
    It’s ok to be sad❤️

  4. H.... U....

    I recently lost my twin. It feels like I'm only existing with half myself and the other half is just an empty void.

  5. F.... ....

    I am still lost in the sea of busy places. I hate the reflection of me that i see in the mirror. I hate how this depression and anxiety is killing me slowly. I already seek for help. I was supposed to be on meds but i dont want to depend on them so i stopped after 4 months. I am getting better slowly but i still hate to see me. I already stopped self harm but at times when i am emotionally numb or when im too angry, i would hurt myself again (either by cutting my arms or punching walls). I think i could have won an award at Oscars for the best acting ever since i always pretend that im okay. Smiling and laughing on the outside but my insides are dying. Living is hard indeed.

  6. J.... ....

    read from top to bottom by sentences ^^




    I'm very ugly
    So don't try to convince me that
    i am a very beautiful person
    Because at the end of the day
    I hate myself in every single way
    And i'm not going to lie to myself by saying
    There is beauty inside me that matters
    So rest assured i will remind myself
    That i am a worthless, terrible person
    And nothing you say will make me believe
    i still deserve love
    Because no matter what
    I am not good enough to be loved
    And i am in no position to believe that
    Beauty does exist within me
    Because whenever i look in the mirror i always think
    Am i as ugly as people say?




    Now read from the bottom to the top by sentences ♡

  7. w.... a....

    I found Me... myself, my darker self, barely breathing but still alive, thank you my darker self you always defending me from insanity of this world, you're who always take the pain for me, but i'm so dumb to realized it, that I always fight you, fight to pushed you away from this life, trying to erase you away, but now I given up to fight you my darker self, Iam sorry for always act like that, always hurt you, Im really sorry.. Iam terribly sorry.. now I will take your hand, hug you, give you all my love that no one can't give it for you.. so please stay strong my darker self, and let you be my energy for this lifetime.

  8. J.... V....

    I've been lost for almost 4 years, lied to myself about who I am to reach other's expectations. And here I am, depressed and don't know who I am. I almost ended my life 3 years ago, another time 2 years ago. Recently, I've been thinking about it. I stopped acting like someone else to fit other's expectations about a year ago, but I'm still broken. It's taking me a long while to find myself again, but I will eventually. People say I'm dramatic, overreacting, just being moody...and I hate that, serious things aren't often taken seriously enough. They say that, because I'm still a young teenager at 16 years.

  9. O.... D....

    Yesterday was January 1, the first day of a new year a new decade. The last decade wasn't the best for me... It wasn't the best for alot of people. But I've made a promise to myself to make this year the first of many amazing years yet to come. It won't be easy trust me I know that. But it will happen, I know it will it will happen... Life won't take me down this time... I'm done letting people treat me like a game, it's time I showed them how it's really played.

  10. M.... S....

    Also immer wenn ich versucht habe mit seinen Eltern zu reden fiel das Wort Setra

  11. M.... S....

    Und im Freizeitpark drohte er mir an dass wir am Rückweg Setra fahren müssten

  12. M.... S....

    Und seinen Humd durfte ich auch nicht streicheln weil er mich nicht kannte und immer anhänglicher wurde und das durfte nicht sein

  13. M.... S....

    Sonst müssten wir Setra fahren da kenne ich keinen und kann nicht mehr mit seinen Eltern reden

  14. M.... S....

    Ich durfte bei meinem Ex nicht im Auto mitsingen weil Philipp meinte es musste Ruhe einkehren sonst mussten wir Nachrichten hören und er konnte mit meinem Handicap nicht umgehen er verbat mir mit seinen Eltern über meine Spezialthemen zu reden und meine Stimmings also Spannungsabbaumethoden wie die Selbstgespräche und das Schaukeln weil er meinte das muss für das Kino sitzen sonst geht er mit mir nicht mehr ins Kino

  15. M.... S....

    Das gibt einen neuen Frosch

  16. S.... V....

    2019 and this song still sends shivers down my spine

    S.... V....

    Mine to makes me think of my life

  17. E.... D....

    I used to stare a my reflection saying to myself its just a bad dream but I never was. For all the people who suffer from depression, anxiety and self harm remember you are never alone you always will have someone there to help you. I know it’s hard but you have the power to do anything you want. Am not telling you to change who you are, am saying it’s okey to not be okey ♥️

  18. L.... S....

    😢 not self harmed in long time but today I can’t take no more

  19. R.... H....

    Great song

  20. M.... S....

    At my ex house i was not allowed to talk to his parents about my special themes

  21. s.... p....

    I kept smiling throughout the day
    Just to hide my pain sadness anger
    Its really hard😔😔😔

  22. S.... L....

    Why isn`t this out on spotify? I want it on my playlist!!

  23. K.... L....

    who else cried when it said no longer needing pain to feel ;(

  24. C.... M....

    this song is very potent, i can identify with it a lot.

  25. K.... R....

    3:25 (this is for me so I can skip to the end over and over again and try to learn this song on a slightly out of tune piano. Rip. 😂)

  26. M.... H....

    Them: hey u okay?
    Me: yeah :>

    Honestly I don't even know if I'm really okay

  27. A.... o....

    Today I looked I the mirror. I started crying


    *ive been strong for to long I think it’s my time to go home where everyone loves and appreciates me 🙃❤️*

  28. S.... S....

    This song are just the things what I looking for was

  29. h.... f....

    Guys you all are enough. I know it’s scary now but you’ll find calm and when you do you need to savor it. It’s gonna be a long ride back to whatever your normal is and the only thing you’ll have to hold onto is yourself and your goals. You are enough. You are beautiful. You can get better. I’m working on it now and it’s incredibly hard to let go of broken relationships and to trust people enough to start new ones. It is possible though. I still break down but I am doing it. I can’t do it on my own but I am asking for help and getting better

  30. N.... ....

    I can still be really happy and I look in the mirror all happy and joyful. Then I smile less, I look in my eyes soo deep. And I suddenly turn my face from the mirror. Cause I just stop smiling and I remember all the painful moments.. and some days I'm afraid to look in the mirror.

    We forget that our eyes tell A LOT.
    To some this can be stressful. I'm sorry. I just feel like I need to write this right now..
    Also, there are a lot of days when I forget all the pain. I'm still happy. I'm not that depressed and anxious like I am now.
    Wish you all a very good day! ❤😁

  31. s.... c....

    Be yourself the world needs you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  32. Y.... C....

    if I do it I won't ever look back☺🎈

  33. B.... Y....

    I just wanted to let all of you know, it's not too late for you. Your are worth it, You can get better no matter the circumstances. I believe in you you can do it. Your all beautiful inside and out in your own way, don't hate on yourself or what you have done. You can be forgiven, you can get over heartbreak. You are worth it, I hated myself for so long and never thought I was good enough for anything or anyone in this world but recently I woke up and said you know what I am worth it I have to believe in myself then everyone else will soon follow and believe in me. You will get through this, this feeling in you is only temporary. You deserve everything the world has to offer so make the most out of it. Please take care and have a good day.

  34. J.... D....

    I’ve never cut or tried to harm myself to feel pain because all I feel is pain. I wish I was numb, I wish because if I was, I wouldn’t be sitting in a puddle of tears down my cheeks. I’ve had anxiety for as long as I can remember and it won’t go away.

  35. y.... ....

    I was depressed for almost 3 years. I hadn't friends, isolating myself from everyone. I always fought with my parents and sister. I cried every night, sometimes I just went outside to the garden and watched stars through my sobs. One day though, when I was on internet listening to music, one specific song popped out in my recommendations. It was BTS - Fake love. I never heard of them before. I started to listen and read English lyrics they added. The scene with the guy in the mask, putting the mask away, broke me. I was always smiling on everyone, helping everyone with their problems, listening to them. I never received their help in return. I started to listen to more of their songs and I found strenght in their words. It's a year and a half since I found them. I'm so much better person. They help me love myself. I still can't overcome depressions really good, and I'm putting mask everyday, but slowly they're healing me. I'm grateful. They saved me from running away from home. From only safe place I have.

  36. T.... ....

    Lol, when a fan lyric video gets more then the actual music video

  37. H.... S....

    Beautiful voice

  38. I.... I....

    Thank you for sharing, it hits home.💫💙

  39. S.... ....

    Thank you

  40. D.... G....

    Love it keep fighting n going! Elbow everything n every one love one self!

  41. T.... G....

    Scars line my arms, on my sleeve i wore my heart 😔😔😔

  42. C.... M....

    "my heart beating,barely breathing but still alive" damn tvat hits me cause i strugle from panick attacks and this is exactly what i feel

  43. H.... B....

    This beat seems so familiar but I can't figure out where from

  44. B.... C....

    If you get through it you’ll be a fucking brilliant person, I found myself at my lowest, and it got better. One day I told myself I’m going to live differently, and I did it, one day at a time I got happier I kept telling myself I don’t need all these unnecessary negative feelings... I found the positive and I stayed positive!! I know it’s easier said then done but that how I found myself and saved myself. Be the person you want to be and not what you think people want you to be. Let down your hair, don’t care and stay positive that’s the trick. And trust me I feel so much more better about life. If you want to feel better about life, do something about it and change the way you think and start thinking positive 💕💕 if I (a random person on YouTube in the comments section) can get through it... you can to!!!! I just hope that this comment can help someone

  45. R.... Q....

    I don't even know who I am right now☹️💔

  46. S.... W....

    my dad has never been with me for 11 years straight i hate myself because im a mistake ive never knew who i am cause people think im ugly sometimes my crush runs away from me im depressed my big brother wants to kill himself my mom only stuck around and raised three kids herself


    EDIT: my best friend wants to kill herself

  47. d.... h....

    Fantastic song!

  48. d.... h....

    This is me !

  49. E.... S....

    669th comment.

  50. E.... M....

    Hello strangers. I just want you to know that you actually will be fine. Will be okay. But please hold on. I don't know what it's like being in your shoes. Don't give up. Keep trying. Be strong even just enough.

    Strangers, I really don't have any wise words to say to you. I've been there before, feeling the pain. It hurt so much. Maybe not pain as you. Make yourself busy. Eat well. Don't go to bed late. Sleep early. Talk to your friends. Just cry if you feel so heavy in your chest. Your heart needs to heal. Need to free from that heavy feels.

    Strangers, I love you.

  51. M.... G....

    Wow thank you 💖💖💯💯😭😭

  52. t.... ....

    This song reminds me what my parents said to me
    Please like this comment 👇🏻

  53. I.... W....

    the comments make me sadder than the actual song I’m sorry for everything you guys go through :’)

  54. J.... H....

    i always listen to depressing music thats what my sister tells me but i listen to it to make me calm and to make me happy and it helps me with all my pain and everything

  55. A.... m....

    You are not a soldier but you try to fight, fight and fight. Try to find a solution, confess to other people, try to love yourself,try to not cut yourself, you have fight for your life,for your happiness. But at the end, no one appreciate you,you give up. Then you find one way to end everything. You kill yourself.. that is how I'm feel.

  56. c.... t....

    This really makes me think I used to cut I used to hide behind drugs I landed myself in a hospital almost dead got out thought I'd b ok was back in the hospital listening to this song 8 months ago I was nothing anymore now slowly fixing me

  57. j.... a....

    Whether we want to admit it or not we are here because we are depressed, because depression is a monster that has captured us and taken us to a different world where we no longer recognize ourselves anymore, We are a family, whether you suffer from being bipolar, suffer from depression, anxiety or any other mental Illnes or you have a food disorder we should help eachother, *WE WILL HELP EACHOTHER* whether you are a cuter you are loved this is coming from a person who is a cuter, has depression, has a food disorder and sufferers from really bad anxiety, I thought I was broken my entire life that no one would ever listen to what I had to say but no I'm not broken and I do have people who will listen to me, people who suffer from any type of disorder or your just sad if you ever wanna talk I'm here you can talk to me
    https://youtu.be/addme/UmPPOIn4YvMKoOyIuc9jmgGIfPJfOg
    Or you can just coment on here I will be on here a lot just know
    *YOU ARE NOT ALONE!*

  58. f.... m....

    I have NEVER wanted to put down a comment for this music YouTube video thing for SOME ODD REASON but I LOVE THIS SONG!!! Music is such a Beautiful Godly Gift!

  59. S.... L....

    I need to find myself cause i am lost!

  60. D.... S....

    If anyone is feeling depressed. If y'all guys want to talk about it. I'm here. I maybe don't know y'all guys but I'm here if anyone is feeling depressed. If you want to end you life. Don't do it bc if I was y'all guys friend I would go to your house and save y'all guys. Don't be depressed, I'm here if y'all guys want to talk about.

  61. J.... a....

    Every body is saying that they almost ended there life but then heard this song and if made them keep fighting, but I have been broken my whole life and this song isn’t going to stop me from killing my self witch I plan on doing very soon once I fined out how I’m going to do it and what I’m going to wright in my suicide note

  62. N.... L....

    is it ok to be depressed in 2019?

  63. A.... G....

    I know how y'all feel.

  64. B.... J....

    2019👌
    i found myself😊

  65. N.... V....

    1 year ago today, i overdosed and i've been having th worst day today, thinking about "what if today had to be a memorial" and I dont know If I love or hate that...

  66. R.... E....

    In a world of blurry faces........IS THIS TWENTY ONE PILOTS

  67. s.... p....

    I m very sad when my best friend broke with me I never imagined this

  68. x.... ....

    You got a new sub ;)

  69. N.... G....

    I love this song! I'm crying😭

  70. S.... W....

    Do not know where what directs and what God has for me I do not know what

  71. R.... V....

    Dear Anxiety,You DON'T i repeat DON'T own me, You DON'T make my choices, You DON'T control me, You will not let me be Nervous and make me chicken out of things,you will not be in my way for me to have a normal teenage life (or what i have left of it,I'm 14 btw) and You WILL NOT repeat WILL NOT get in my way anymore....-Amber...

    R.... V....

    Yes yes yes yes felt this

    R.... V....

    @Delaine Butler agreed

  72. A.... T....

    i want to selfharm so bad but im trying so hard not to believe me it is harder than u think

  73. E.... H....

    I feel so messed up 😔 I feel like I'm going crazy or something. I thought I was truly gaining "happiness" once again but no I fall right back into depression. But I don't understand any of it. I feel like I've already cried all my tears and so now there's that true feeling of emptiness. All I can do is hate myself.... Hate myself for the person I am. The worst days are when I stare into the mirror crying because of how disgusted I am with myself but it's a few seconds later that I crumble on the floor sobbing because I cant stand to look at myself for one more second. Then I begin to list all the things that are wrong with me. I'm selfish. I'm rude. I'm annoying. I have no talent. I'm a brat. I'm that "friend" that no one actually cares about. I'm insecure. I have the worst possible personality that anyone could ever have. I say too much. It's interesting.... My depression did not come from pure self hatred, and to be honest I'm not sure how I got depressed but it happened... It just showed up some how. Maybe it's because of what that boy did to me back when I was 9. But that was 7 years ago so that can't be the reason I am the way I am. So the only person to blame is me. My horrible, worthless, awful self got me where I am. I often find myself begging myself to hold on and to just "stay strong". Not sure if anyone will read this whole thing but hey apparently I'm not the only human feeling this way.

  74. T.... F....

    When My HUSBAND walk out on Me ,after 25yrs, turned out to be the BEST thing He ever did, " BECAUSE...I FOUND ME" now he wants back in...really

  75. G.... G....

    Love this song. I'm totally still looking for who I am.

  76. G.... w....

    Poetically poignant...

  77. G.... G....

    Not even more than a month ago I hated myself. I was ugly, my hair was oily, my skin was a home for acne. I wanted to end it all, I started to cut myself a little. I wasn’t popular at school and I always suspected that people talked about me behind my back. But recently I’ve been paying more attention and I realized that there are people who have it a lot worse. I talk easily to boys and I’m in a fairly popular nerd group. I realized that we have our place and that people do respect us. People do respect me. I should stop trying to ‘glow up’ and change myself, because being popular isn’t me, but that’s okay. I have friends and people know my name, and for that I’m grateful. I was lost. Now I’m found. I don’t change for anyone and I’ll continue to be myself throughout school, no matter what.

  78. J.... t....

    This song means a lot more then u think. when u look in the mirror what do u see ugliness or true beauty. U all need to find who u truly are no more faking we are here in this world to make a difference so we need to make one. lets start out to love urself more and more cause we are all worthy of something.

  79. k.... J....

    The most beautiful song ever written and sung !

  80. t.... b....

    IT ISNT CALLED I FOUND MYSELF ITS CALLED RELAPSE😒🤐👿

  81. A.... W....

    This song helped me from cutting myself but it’s still hard to find hope in this world

  82. B.... M....

    I love you

  83. H.... G....

    This song...oof...I literally haven’t cried in about 3 and a half years but this song made me cry...I literally lost all emotions but sadness and anger but damn did this song make me cry

  84. T.... M....

    Thank you for this music its getting me through the biggest storms of my life

  85. k.... k....

    Your skin isn't paper, don't cut it.💖
    Your are pretty, beautiful and kind never forget that ❤️💕

  86. J.... V....

    I got over my depression and anxiety about 2 years ago and I know how hard it can be and I have scars for proof. All of those still going to the pain. Know I'm sending out a hug and that you will never be alone and you can always overcome. 😊

  87. E.... K....

    Do you know what hurts the most, when people say they know you but you don't even know yourself.

  88. R.... A....

    Feeling so down lately. I’ve been getting bullied for being a fat kid. Even by my own friends. I go on YouTube to look for easy ways to lose weight. I’m tired of trying to starve myself. I’m tired of thinking of trying to cut my own fat off. I want to find myself before I end myself. I wish, that the world could be a better place.

    So many kids go through so much even adults do. We have 12 years to fix our world. We need to stop treating others like crap. We need to respect others. We need to stop hurting others. It’s not funny, it’s not fun. It hurts, and I don’t think you want to hurt either.

    Fuck depression and anxiety.

    Love our heart and body.

    Live a normal peaceful sweet life.

    Maybe then we could like school, and wouldn’t have to be bullied.

    You probably think no body loves you. But I do. I love you with all my heart even if we don’t even know anyone. I always pray that everyone in this world could have a good day.

    I love you.

    R.... A....

    thank you

  89. L.... A....

    Immediately drew me in, healing is hard work and can be so lonely... this song is a long over due hug to my soul. I solo'd to it at a charity event this week, was perfect. Thank you so much for the raw emotion, we need more of this to embrace the blessing of our vulnerability as a gift. Much love all!

  90. K.... M....

    This song I can't believe fits exactly where and what I've felt over the last few days.Wowwwww

  91. T.... W....

    I found myself on the edge of death

  92. A.... F....

    Self harmed for 7 going on 8 years I'm still recovering and it hard but it got better but not in life gotta be strong for my son and it's helping

  93. N.... S....

    I try to be open and honest about my feelings but when it comes down to it i never am. I wish someone would care about me enough to notice I’m not as happy as they think. I want someone to notice I really do, but when someone asks how are you I suddenly can’t tell the truth and say I’m fine. At school things are fine I guess, don’t have that many friends but it’s okay I have some great ones. At home things suck. I’m kinda afraid of germs but embarrassed to say so, for this reason I don’t like to give my mom a kiss but still do so to make her happy. My dad is always working but it’s okay. My mom gets mad at me for literally everything. When I walk inside and have sweaty feet she yells at me for making the floor dirty. And my dad just always agrees with my mom. When my mom gets mad at me my dad just always takes her side even when he has no clue what she got mad about. My sisters steal chips and shit from the “candy closet” and ofcourse I always get the blame. When I try to talk to my parents they get mad at me. It’s like they don’t want to change for the better. They think I’m the problem and never even for one second thought that maybe they should change their parenting. And then school is stressing me out so much, I don’t want to spend all my hours cramming useless info in my brain. In general I’m a worthless piece of shit that can’t get her life together

  94. E.... B....

    I almost went out with my scars showing today, but I just couldn’t, I felt so ashamed. It was 18 degrees and I was in a jacket... 😕💕

    E.... B....

    Don't worry, you will take this step one day. I know it semms easier than it actually is, but you can do it. I believe in you. ❤️

  95. J.... B....

    Another song about me... Love it!!!!

  96. J.... K....

    You're not paper, don't cut yourself
    You're life isn't a game, don't end it
    Do
    You
    Know
    Who
    Is
    Special
    And
    Important...

    Read the second word :)

  97. R.... 1....

    I can sure enough relate to this song and as I did to others. Cause I am not always not guilty as I try my best to be in peoples eyes. They at times see the true me but God he knows all and he never left me once. Thank you Lord for sticking to us closer than a brother.